Thursday, January 18, 2007
9:19 PM
The Cold Truth...
Yeah... Today... The Best Day Even In my Entire Life... I learnt the truth frm Jia Yun that she has a person she likes... WOOOOOHOOOOO!!! Good For HER!! I am so happy... WOOOOHOOOO!!! This is the face I will show definitely in front of everyone... U can scold me 'fake' like Jia Yun n Xuqi but I still believe in acting happy and friendly so as to give ppl good memories... Haha... Also, I feel that it's natural for some ppl like me 2 not show tt we are sad when we are real fucking sad... Lol... It's not bcos we wanna act HERO but bcos we dun wan you guys 2 worry abt us... N it's realli not easy acting happy and cool when ur inside is like crap...
Today, me, Nigel, Jerry, Jia Yun n Joanna were at the canteen 2 toking n eating... Lol... Nigel omost say out the Truth, I WANNA KILL YOU NIGEL!! Haha... But I understand la, u are juz trying 2 help... It is oso ard tis point I heard sometink abt she keep going msn. Haha, it's true, these few days she keep appearing online... Makes me damn happy but when I tok 2 her, BINGO, sometimes she juz dun wanna reply... WoooHOOO!! Tt feeling rocks... It feel like 10 ppl is holding a rock and smashing ur heart and yet u cant die... U will b like staring at the screen w8ing for her 2 reply and slowly u will wanna give up... N in the end, you will leave ur com on and go 2 slp, hoping 2 see a reply the nxt morning and everytime, it ended up a disappointment... Back 2 the canteen, Jia yun was saying that 'she' keeps going online for Mr. 'ahem'... Lol... Thru-out the whole day, I cant believe I cant fucking concentrate... Tt sentence keep flashing in my mind...
Finally, I took a bus home and sms Jia Yun abt telling me the truth... WOOOHOOO!!! BINGO!!! Joanna like someone! WOOOHOOO!!! BINGO!!! I was walking home frm the bus-stop tt I alighted and I was listening 2 退后 by Jay Chou... N I found myself tearing... DAMN IT!!! It's fucking public!!! Yet, I juz cant realli control... Don't worry, I dint cry like a baby, I cry like a man who lost his heart, with no whining, no shouting, juz tearing, with pieces of my heart being smashed... ALL DREAMS ABOUT OPERATION 'CHASING MJ', confessing, hugging, holding hands juz flew away... These dreams kept me alive for these past few months n they juz flew away... COOOOOOOOL!!! N today she heard tt I have a blog n ask me for the address... LOL! If u noe my blog, I tink I will realli die... Anyway, hope you have happiness... N I seriously want you 2 rest more... I heard u telling me abt u omost kena bang by car bcos u are like slp-walking, CMON!!! I dun wan you 2 get hurt ya? N if tt guy bully u, juz tell me, I will help u settle... LOL...
Today is the 1st day I hope this sem can juz be gone within a blink of an eye... It's nt ur fault, not his fault, it's nobody's. Take care ya?
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY OH YONG LIANG!!! May aLL ur dreams come true!
